Wearing A Smile

Peeps, I'm pretty happy. I finally sleep well at night and smile and laugh. Sure, there are things that I should be stressed about and worried about, but I know I did the right thing coming here. I miss some people back in the Falls, but this move was great for me. I've met some new people. Get to see my family everyday and have had some relaxation and fun.

Now, I'm not saying that my journey is complete or that there aren't things to work on because there are. I'm still finding who I am. Who Katie is without a guy, without people all around her, without the comfort zone. So far, I'm pleased with my progress.

If I can get a job, life will be grand instead of great.

I'm thankful for my friends and will be forever grateful for my family. I'm pretty sure I get on their nerves quite a bit (especially Mom and Dad).

I'm going to be me. I hate disappointing people, but I gotta do what I feel is okay/right. What makes me happy. I know there are some disagreements on what is right or what I should be doing. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm going about it the best, newest way I know how. I know there is something great out there for me and I'm on the search for it. I feel better about myself everyday for the most part. I've put up a little bit of a wall for protection, but I hope I don't seem bitter or rude. I'm pretty caring, affectionate and loyal, but I'm not just going to give those qualities to anyone anymore. They are for special people and must be earned. That may sound stupid, but I don't much care. Katie needs building up and each day I try and get a little higher.

I can't wait for my own place and job so I feel like an adult again. Home is nice though...food and such is nice to have around.

Thank you to anyone who has supported me and pushed me to be better. Even though I resist or don't get it right away, I'm trying.

I'm just so happy to smile again. Everyday.