Revisit the List

A long time ago i had a list of things to do...i'm curious to see what i got done and what changed...let's check it out shall we:

1. Get Tan- I did that...but now its gone

2. Whiten My Teeth....oooo still need to do that

3. FIX my BACKYARD...haha yeah, hate that house

-Fence

-Holes

-Grass Cut

-Black Trim

-Porch Post

4. Get Rid of Hugo:(...indeed...i cried all the way home

5. Get Carpet Cleaned...check

6. Register for Grad School...haha nope, decided to take a p-pass

7. Take the GMAT...ugh...NEGATIVE didn't need it

8. Run...hmmmm, lets skip this one

9. Get My Abs Back...BAHAHHAHAHAHA...

10. Pump Some Iron...again, there are still some things i need to do and its apparent

11. Take Vitamins...they are in my cabinet staring at me

12. Transfer My Files....don't remember what this was for

13. Buy Shoes...yes I must...i'm not buying anything unless it starts with F and ends in -OOD (look at post below this one)

14. Buy Tinted Windows for my Jeep...I'm Taking DONATIONS....may i remind you I'm poor and donations are awesome

15. Go Swimming...what the heck did i put that for?

16. Smash Something....wells fargo would be nice to smash

17. Smile More...depends on the day

18. Sell My Clearwire Unit...only after they charged me $70...idiots

19. Get a Massage...still have a coupon for that

20. Fix My Hip...i still can't lay on it

21. Go to the "girls" Doctor...check, it was horrible

22. Organize My Clothes...check

23. Take That Stuff to Goodwill...check

24. Photo shoot with Tim.......negative

25. Stop Putting Random Charges on my Phone...think so

26. Pay Off My Credit Card...yikes...i hate money

27. Save Money Period...working hard on it

28. Relax More...check

29. Graduate Saturday...check!!!!!!

30. Pick up Parents...i wish

31. Keep Northern Accent...kinda

32. Wear my new Crocs...check

33. Go See Sis and Rich in Bowie More...now its denton

34. Get Better at Poker...check

35. Go Camping...check

36. Go Mudding Again...check

37. Vacuum My Jeep...Again....needs it badly...spilled the fire pit

38. Keep Lovin' Life...depends on the day

Well peeps...i did okay...now i'm gonna go eat roast and carrots instead of pumping iron. It has vitamins though so "check" to that one!

News Flash

Money is stupid

unless you have loads of it.

the end:)

love

This is not a traditional post for me. Reason being, I'm usually a smart...butt...on this blog and talk about fun trips or things that I want. Another reason is because of how this relationship is...it's not all mushy gushy, showy, flashy. This post is not about something I want but about something I already have. Recently I have been shown things I truly appreciate in a person and a relationship. Anyone I've ever been with has always been very possessive over me or selfish or there is a slight disregard for my ambitions. Now that someone has shown me the opposite, I find myself in disbelief and I don't quite know how to handle it. I now find that sometimes I'm holding myself back...not some significant other, which is weird because it's never been that way before. It is that person who now pushes me to go for something better and something I've worked hard for and deserve, even if it means a strain or sacrifice. At first it bothered me...and now I just appreciate it and I am thankful. I believe from the bottom of my heart that this is the truest, healthiest and most down to earth relationship I've ever been in. Different for sure and at times frustrating, but fun and spontaneous and challenging (in a good way...i hate to be bored) at the same time.

I know the family has been worried about me and I haven't communicated much about things to anyone...not because i don't feel i can share, but for once I want to figure it out on my own, without running for help. I now think I'm getting a healthy balance...talking and discussing, but still doing it on my own. I know I am a difficult person to handle at times and can be completely emotional and irrational but I truly appreciate the people closest to me for putting up with it and I hope to make up for the idiosyncrasies I dish out.

Love is an amazing thing and I am beginning to see what it truly looks like.