Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Excited
Excited for my new adventure coming up this weekend. So excited that its making this week pass by sooo slowly!
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Settle
I hate when I settle.
I've settled for getting out of shape and its bad news bears. Frustrates me that I've let myself get out of a routine.
I have a feeling that I'll never be in the shape i was my senior year of college, and thats okay...what's not okay is not doing anything.
In other news in Katie's brain:
My boss is going through manager training and she had to do an exercise and ask me a bunch of questions...not many of them were easy. She left me with some "homework" for our follow up..."What Kind of Life Do I Picture/Want? What Is My perfect Life?"
I've had people ask the age old question of "where do you see yourself in 5 or 10 years" and I can't always answer it. When she asked me it that way i started to think...my mind wasn't blank but it certainly wasn't a clear cut answer...and it kinda should be.
Somewhere along the way I stopped setting major goals for myself, my life. I've set little ones, but not big ones. Not ones that will get me to where I want to be. Which poses the question...where do i want to be? What's my dream job, lifestyle, home, etc...
I used to be such a planner, to know exactly what I wanted and when I wanted it to happen. When things started to fall through and change and my mind changed I stopped making big goals and proclamations...it got to a point where I just tried to survive, to make it through the day, to find happiness...
Now that I am surviving and I am happy, where are my goals? What are my dreams?
Personally, I think I can be happy in just about any location...give or take obvious outliers (a shack, arctic, suppressive area). I have a man that I love and know that's who I want to spend the rest of my life with. BUT you can't live your life for or through a person so I thinks important to have your goals and happiness OUTSIDE of a relationship. I'm okay with myself and being alone finally...huge step that I'm very happy to proclaim. Next step is to set some goals or a picture of a life I want to create with what I have and what I know. Many of times I've made a list of goals (some ridiculous) and very few of them get crossed off...which makes them pointless to me. I have to find another way to motivate the mind...Pick a few rather than an entire list that seems overwhelming.
A DREAM LIFE WOULD BE:
A large log home with amazing view of texas landscape (or somewhere else, doesn't matter)
4 wheelers and a boat for bass fishing
Land to hunt on and shoot
Core group of friends who are there for you
Continue a strong and healthly relationship with my family
R and I to always be willing to work with one another on a healthy and loving relationship
A part time job that I REALLY love or a full time job at something I'm good at (depending on $ situation)
Barely to no debt
Pay off and have a nice working vehicle (preferably a Jeep Wrangler)
Some travel, things to look forward to
Busy is always good, but not overwhelmed lifestyle
I want to be in good shape
Cooking new things
Is this the recipe to the best life ever? the only way i'll be happy? Not at all, I don't need a large log home with incredible views to be happy, I don't need a bass boat or a new jeep wrangler to have made it...STUFF doesn't necessarily mean happiness or "Youve made it"... I think where I get stuck is WHAT IS MY PASSION? There are so many things I like and enjoy, but I can't think of a true passion other than my relationships with a few people that matter. I can't think of a dream job...a job to which i'd be totally passionate and dedicated. Some people don't find a passion in their job, they find it elsewhere. I'd like to find it somewhere at least.
I'm happy and feel loved and blessed but I'm not content, i know there's more for me out there to find or learn about myself. I do know ultimately, I just want to be happy with R and continue to find things that spark my interest and my mind. And find my place in this world. It can be wichita falls or anywhere. "Where" doesn't matter...It's "who" I'm with, spend time with and how I find my happiness, my spot and joy in life. I don't need to know/plan everything, a surprise and the journey is nice (sometimes haha), but a benchmark or ideas and goals and searches are key.
I've settled for getting out of shape and its bad news bears. Frustrates me that I've let myself get out of a routine.
I have a feeling that I'll never be in the shape i was my senior year of college, and thats okay...what's not okay is not doing anything.
In other news in Katie's brain:
My boss is going through manager training and she had to do an exercise and ask me a bunch of questions...not many of them were easy. She left me with some "homework" for our follow up..."What Kind of Life Do I Picture/Want? What Is My perfect Life?"
I've had people ask the age old question of "where do you see yourself in 5 or 10 years" and I can't always answer it. When she asked me it that way i started to think...my mind wasn't blank but it certainly wasn't a clear cut answer...and it kinda should be.
Somewhere along the way I stopped setting major goals for myself, my life. I've set little ones, but not big ones. Not ones that will get me to where I want to be. Which poses the question...where do i want to be? What's my dream job, lifestyle, home, etc...
I used to be such a planner, to know exactly what I wanted and when I wanted it to happen. When things started to fall through and change and my mind changed I stopped making big goals and proclamations...it got to a point where I just tried to survive, to make it through the day, to find happiness...
Now that I am surviving and I am happy, where are my goals? What are my dreams?
Personally, I think I can be happy in just about any location...give or take obvious outliers (a shack, arctic, suppressive area). I have a man that I love and know that's who I want to spend the rest of my life with. BUT you can't live your life for or through a person so I thinks important to have your goals and happiness OUTSIDE of a relationship. I'm okay with myself and being alone finally...huge step that I'm very happy to proclaim. Next step is to set some goals or a picture of a life I want to create with what I have and what I know. Many of times I've made a list of goals (some ridiculous) and very few of them get crossed off...which makes them pointless to me. I have to find another way to motivate the mind...Pick a few rather than an entire list that seems overwhelming.
A DREAM LIFE WOULD BE:
A large log home with amazing view of texas landscape (or somewhere else, doesn't matter)
4 wheelers and a boat for bass fishing
Land to hunt on and shoot
Core group of friends who are there for you
Continue a strong and healthly relationship with my family
R and I to always be willing to work with one another on a healthy and loving relationship
A part time job that I REALLY love or a full time job at something I'm good at (depending on $ situation)
Barely to no debt
Pay off and have a nice working vehicle (preferably a Jeep Wrangler)
Some travel, things to look forward to
Busy is always good, but not overwhelmed lifestyle
I want to be in good shape
Cooking new things
Is this the recipe to the best life ever? the only way i'll be happy? Not at all, I don't need a large log home with incredible views to be happy, I don't need a bass boat or a new jeep wrangler to have made it...STUFF doesn't necessarily mean happiness or "Youve made it"... I think where I get stuck is WHAT IS MY PASSION? There are so many things I like and enjoy, but I can't think of a true passion other than my relationships with a few people that matter. I can't think of a dream job...a job to which i'd be totally passionate and dedicated. Some people don't find a passion in their job, they find it elsewhere. I'd like to find it somewhere at least.
I'm happy and feel loved and blessed but I'm not content, i know there's more for me out there to find or learn about myself. I do know ultimately, I just want to be happy with R and continue to find things that spark my interest and my mind. And find my place in this world. It can be wichita falls or anywhere. "Where" doesn't matter...It's "who" I'm with, spend time with and how I find my happiness, my spot and joy in life. I don't need to know/plan everything, a surprise and the journey is nice (sometimes haha), but a benchmark or ideas and goals and searches are key.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Almost That Time
Almost time to be fishing again!
My mom sent me a couple pictures of me fishing when i was little. My papa always used to take me and my brother fishing. Special memories.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Happy Pink and Red Day
I hate the colors pink and red. BUT happy valentines day even though every day your loved one should be reminded they are loved and thought about. Glad I have a great valentine in mister rc!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
On the Horizon
"Life in this city's been dragging me down
There's a brand new face in my one horse town" -richie bates, to hell with lovenew life on the horizon. prayers. thank you to my support system (fam and few friends)...without them i'd be lost.
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