Wearing A Smile

Peeps, I'm pretty happy. I finally sleep well at night and smile and laugh. Sure, there are things that I should be stressed about and worried about, but I know I did the right thing coming here. I miss some people back in the Falls, but this move was great for me. I've met some new people. Get to see my family everyday and have had some relaxation and fun.

Now, I'm not saying that my journey is complete or that there aren't things to work on because there are. I'm still finding who I am. Who Katie is without a guy, without people all around her, without the comfort zone. So far, I'm pleased with my progress.

If I can get a job, life will be grand instead of great.

I'm thankful for my friends and will be forever grateful for my family. I'm pretty sure I get on their nerves quite a bit (especially Mom and Dad).

I'm going to be me. I hate disappointing people, but I gotta do what I feel is okay/right. What makes me happy. I know there are some disagreements on what is right or what I should be doing. Maybe I'm wrong, but I'm going about it the best, newest way I know how. I know there is something great out there for me and I'm on the search for it. I feel better about myself everyday for the most part. I've put up a little bit of a wall for protection, but I hope I don't seem bitter or rude. I'm pretty caring, affectionate and loyal, but I'm not just going to give those qualities to anyone anymore. They are for special people and must be earned. That may sound stupid, but I don't much care. Katie needs building up and each day I try and get a little higher.

I can't wait for my own place and job so I feel like an adult again. Home is nice though...food and such is nice to have around.

Thank you to anyone who has supported me and pushed me to be better. Even though I resist or don't get it right away, I'm trying.

I'm just so happy to smile again. Everyday.

New

Just moved to the dfw area...and I've smiled more in the last few days than I have in years. A lot to look forward to :)

Better Days Ahead

Well hello two readers! I've been in Plano with the rents for almost a week. I just don't feel like going back to Wichita Falls. Plus, yesterday I was diagnosed with strep throat...real fun. The doctor took one look in my mouth and was like "whoa...flaming strep throat!" start moving this weekend and finish up the following weekend. I'm really excited for my new life. I'll miss some people back in the falls though....not many, but some haha. My last three years in WF have been, overall, pretty rough. I've been through a lot there. Learned a lot about myself and went through more ups and downs than I could have ever imagined. The young lady that moved there in August 2007 is totally different now in September 2010...thank God. A little more bitter and cautious now, but definitely wiser and more well rounded. Not everything about WF has been bad. I've met some great people and made a couple of friends that will last a life time. I've done some really cool things as well.

But I'm anxious for new experiences and surroundings. This weekend I walked the streets of uptown...world of difference from the streets in Wichita Falls. SO much life and going on and things to do! I'll miss the backroads of the WF area though and the minimal traffic and Don Joses and how quiet it can be there. Each place has their pros and cons.

The pictures above are of this past weekend with my brother and his gf Kelsey, who I love. We had a great time and I look forward to being able to spend more time with them. I also can't wait to spend more time with my niece who I've been able to make smile and "talk" to me. I'm not really a kid person...I mean I've always been really good with kids, but just wasn't always my thing...especially little babies. But my little Lily Belle is precious and I can't stop staring at her. Plus, she likes spongebob, so we'll get along haha. I also had a job interview on Friday that went really well. I'm hoping to hear back soon. I'm really impatient and it's a job that I think would challange me, push me, and give me new experiences, job saavy and skills. But God will bring me what job I'm meant to have so I'm not nervous or worried for once. I wasn't even really that nervous before the interview. I mean, I know how to talk to people and sell myself (no not like a hooker haha) and if I'm meant to have this job, then it'll happen. All I can do is go in there, answer the questions they ask and just be myself.

This is one of my longer posts. I guess I just have a lot to say. Since I'm not working, I've really had more time to think, reflect. I have more to say...but some of it is just anger at people or situations...so I'll leave that out. I feel like my best days are ahead of me and I can't wait for them to come!